She told me many things about life and growing up. She told me to smile and learn to appreciate what I have. My mom told me I can achieve anything I want in this world. I retorted back with much disappointments and repugnance. I’m going to miss you a lot and will be very lonely, she said in tears as she serves me my breakfast. I’ll come back soon or may be you should consider leaving our hometown and live with me, now that I’m starting to work, I replied. She smiled and told me how much she loved me. She said again in tears and hugged me before I leave. I thought, she was melodramatic and that was the last time I saw my mother alive.
My relationship with my mother was never perfect, however deep down in our heart we loved each other. Now that she is far away from me and never answered no matter how loud I shout, I realized all the many things how I wish I should have told my mom before she died. Like Harriet Beecher Stowe said “The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and deeds left undone”. So, don’t take chances, go tell your mother how much you love her before it’s too late. Consider it as a little push from my side if your loving mother is still alive, because I don’t want you to regret it like me. There are thousand things in my head, but these are the three main things I wish I should have told my mother when she was still alive.
I Love You: Three words that can be taken for granted or said easily without meaning, yet very difficult to spill out these three magic words to the person you love so much. My excuses of not saying these words was that, Off-course she is my mother, I loved her and she knows it, so why do I need to say?? But I didn’t realized how much it means to hear those words from the one you love. So mom , sorry If I didn’t tell you – I LOVE YOU more than anything else in this world.
Thank you: My mother had a rough start of married life with many children, yet she was the strongest and most patient woman I ever met in my life. She worked day and night like she never felt tired just to pay my school tuition fees, buy me new clothes on my birthday and buy me vitamins because she thought that I was too thin. I can’t thank you enough for all you did. Thank you so much for the wonderful massage you gave me in the middle of the night, because I had pain on my legs as a result of playing 1,2,3 & UP the whole weekend. How I wish I should have told you at least THANK YOU before you left the world.
I Need You Always: She told me I’m grown up now and I can take decisions about my life when I was in my Uni, but the truth is I am all faking it. I still need to call her when my friends hurt me unintentionally, when I’m stressed or when I have a guest in my house and need to prepare some food. And, the worst is that, I thought I was so ready to be an independent woman without needing my mother’s advice and love. How I wish she could have witnessed the day I married to a guy I love. So, the fact is no matter how old I may be, I’m not at all done needing you.